This Should End with My Death

This love needs to be amputated, executed, buried deep underground.

The author meets a man. He is married. First, it is about lust, then love. They keep meeting in secret, months turning to years, and making the impossible even worse.

This Should End with My Death is a brutally clear and heartbreaking short novel depicting an author who is cutting herself from forbidden love by writing. All the way to the point where there’s no lust to live, neither yet lust to die. Only the words remain, and it’s worth being honest, whatever the cost.

Reading This Should End with My Death hurts. But there is also dark humour in undoing clichés that suddenly turn into true experiences.

This love needs to be amputated, executed, buried deep underground.

The author meets a man. He is married. First, it is about lust, then love. They keep meeting in secret, months turning to years, and making the impossible even worse.

This Should End with My Death is a brutally clear and heartbreaking short novel depicting an author who is cutting herself from forbidden love by writing. All the way to the point where there’s no lust to live, neither yet lust to die. Only the words remain, and it’s worth being honest, whatever the cost.

Reading This Should End with My Death hurts. But there is also dark humour in undoing clichés that suddenly turn into true experiences.

info

  • Year of publication

    2020

  • Original title

    I slutet borde jag dö

  • Page count

    150

  • Original publisher

    Förlaget M

  • Original language of publication

    Swedish

  • Info

    English translation available.

Reviews

  • Åbo Underrättelser

    "A masterpiece in few words."

  • Literary blog by Björn Kohlström

    "A kind of mourning song and a farewell to a love that must die in order for life to continue, and order to be restored."

  • Suomen Kuvalehti magazine

    "The language of the new novel trembles poetically..."

  • Sophia Lundström, Vasabladet newspaper, Finland

    "Hannele Taivassalo has written a strong fiery story about love: about the desire, the passion and the infinity but at the same time about the pain, the forbidden and the possibility of cross-borders lurks in the background. Where to draw your line if you feel limitless? [...] Taivassalo repeatedly manages to describe the anguish of unrequited love with tender precision, so powerful that I almost have to hold my breath. [...]The novel’s strength is the striking and bare language. The plot is stripped down with few dialogues. The story is built around the narrator’s eventful inner life."

Quote

"If there’s a moral to this story then we know how it all should end. This should end with my death, as in a punishment, at the same time. Everything else would fall into place." (Translated by Saskia Vogel)

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